As good as it gets..

Today was my first say off in almost five weeks. I've been working almost everyday and going to class all day any day I'm not working. I've had no real time to do any of the small things that I love to do. 

So to recharge, Patrick and I took a trip to Savannah,GA.

We left around six a.m. and stopped by the botanical gardens so I could "Stop and smell the rose", and I couldn't be happier that we did. I had no idea there was a tea rose, which smelt like, well, tea.

We walked around the historic district all day and all I have to say is that Savannah gives me the best kind of feelings.

       

Farewell to summer

Although Florida heat will be reaching triple digits, I can tell that slowly the season is changing. 

Nights are cool and breezy, and my attitude about actually getting up and getting things done is so great now that I know fall is coming. 

August is such a strange month in Florida.

But I'm trying to really document this year since it has been a mess of emotions and time has really flown by.

My little sister just moved into her dorm room so I am practically an only child here and I'm trying to make it easier for my parents to transition by staying home and keeping them company.

My boyfriend and I wanted to catch some of this month's changes by watching a meteor shower down in Green Cove. He saw three on the way there, but it was too cloudy to catch a glimpse of anything once we got to our destination. 

But damn was our destination wonderful. Its an old airport, I think, and for some reason in the middle of the lot there is an old ship just sitting and rusting away.

These next pictures were all taken around midnight.

I'm ending my post here by saying that I've moved into my sisters old larger room and I am loving it. I have a desk and much more floor space. All I need to do to finish moving in is paint the room white and find where to hang all of my photos.

Dexter and Whiskey didn't mind sitting and watching me work, either.

It honestly scares me how much changes in less than a months time.

This group of people meant everything to me, and now, for whatever reason my relationship with some of them is dangling on a thin string. I'm hurt. 

What are things going to be like in six more months? Am I even going to talk to them anymore?

His grace is unending and unfailing

This week has been a heck of a journey, as is every walk with God. Knowing when you need to take a step back in order to follow his plan and continue to love yourself. I took a leap of faith; knowing that I'd ruin something I loved. Hurting someone that is so dear to me in order to keep true to Him. I surrendered pursuing relationships to fall deeper in love with my Jesus.

In the last seven days I've learned so much about myself. I don't like to be attacked, or to be told that I'm doing something wrong. Not with everything, but somethings I really don't like to be told about. So I get stubborn, and refuse to look at it with a different perspective. So I miss an important critique, and go about this week feeling bitter and angry.I some how lost myself for a few days. I lost my compassion and love and empathy. I was fueled only by what is "fun" and easy to me. 

God extended his grace to me tonight. Slapping me in the face with the realization that I was running from what His plan is. I was sprinting without looking back.

And I guess that is why being twenty is so tough. Not because you have to decide what you want to do with the rest of your life and go to school for it. But because we have several strings tied to us. A string for a boyfriend, family, what you think is "fun", and then God. Being twenty is tough to me because you are being pulled by each of these ties but you have to decide which string you need to cut. What you think will betray your walk with God. 

I want to do right by Him. I know what it is that I want to do. What He wants me to do. It all just took a good slap in the face by someone that loves and sees my soul.

Sometimes, life's simplest pleasure is coming home after work and just being alone. 

A few years ago, this blissful feeling was so foreign. I never gave myself the time or space to learn what it was that I liked.  

These are the days I most look forward to now. Getting homework finished and listening to music as loud as can be.

Aside from all of this, I scored on some cute future home things.

On top of spending days with myself, indulging in sweets and cats, I spend most of  my time with Diggie and Eldred. I couldn't explain to anyone why these guys are my absolute favorite, but they just are.  Most of the time we explore things and climb man made cliffs. Every day is a new adventure. I feel very blessed to have these two, along with all of my other friends, in my life.

The in between days

My favorite season is right around the corner!

This means beautiful reds, oranges and yellows are going to be all over. Pumpkin flavored and scented everything, and I get to bring out my scarves and coats again!

Until all of my favorites come back, I'll just enjoying the cool breezes that August brings in.

Along with fall, I love vintage kitchen anything! I found these cute things for only $6! 

If only I had a kitchen of my own to enjoy them in.

My boy Dexter loves them, too.

 So happy almost Fall, Y'all!

Spent the afternoon hopping to different parks to take some photos and eat lunch;

Happy Wednesday. 

And one more for shits and giggles